Choosing to L.O.V.E.

This past weekend Greg and I went on the Choosing to L.O.V.E. retreat.  What a refresher it was to get out just the two of us and remind us that we need God and each other.  With all the crazy things we have had going on the past few years, we forgot how to live our vows.  We have recommitted ourselves to living God’s word and living our lives the way God intended.  The only bad (but really good) thing that came with the weekend was the food.  Lots of DELICIOUS food!  I am talking pigs in the blankets, homemade chicken and dumplings, grilled chicken wraps, and steak dinner!  Man-O-Man was it some good eating.  We got back from the retreat and took the girls out to eat and of course I had a big, juicy hamburger!  I am ready to put that behind me and move on from my bad weekend.  I didn’t prep this week so I am trying to stay on track by making better choices but again, without prepping it is really hard.  All I want to do is eat the fries and bad stuff!  So today I am going to choose to not only love God, my husband, and family... but LOVE myself.  I am going to commit to myself just like I did to God and Greg.

I think one thing that will help me stay motivated is starting to blog about my good days and my bad.  Today was a bad day.  I ate chips for breakfast.  That’s right… CHIPS!  What was I thinking?  For lunch I had a delicious salad with balsamic vinaigrette.  This evening I am planning on making sausage and mac & cheese.  I know that isn’t good for me but maybe I will just have a salad.  I might need a prayer with that one!

I have decided that I am going to post my goals because maybe, just maybe, I will be encouraged to stick with them.  I want to get down to 140lbs so bad but I definitely don’t want to work for it.  So first I have to change my lifestyle and then work on losing weight.

Current weight: 193.6

Goal 1 à 183 à -10.6lbs à by 4/5/15 (Easter) à Reward = mani & pedi

Goal 2 à 173 à -10lbs à by 5/25/15 (Memorial Day) à Reward = New shorts

Goal 3 à 165 à -8lbs à by 7/4/15 (4^th of July) à Reward = New tattoo

Goal 4 à 157 à -8lbs à by 9/7/15 (Labor Day) à Reward = New shoes

Goal 5 à 152 à -5lbs à by 10/5/15 (E’s B-day) à Reward = Jewelry

Goal 6 à 150 à -2lbs à by 10/21/15 (A’s B-day) à Reward = Massage

Goal 7 à 145 à -5lbs à by 11/26/15 (Thanksgiving) à Reward = ?? TBD

Goal 8 à 140 à -5lbs à by 12/25/15 (Christmas) à Reward =Trip

After actually writing all the goals down I realized that they are very attainable AND I need to get busy! 

So here is to working hard to get that weight off!

I ate badly today...

From 2/19/15:

Today I ate badly.  Not just bad but really bad.  I joined a 21 day clean eating challenge and it is day 11 and I have failed.  Not just today but this week.  I did so good last week and didn’t see any results.  I know the changes take time but I mean I gave up Diet Coke… cold turkey… and still nothing!  I am writing this so I remember how I feel at this moment.  Sad and depressed that I gave up… 11 days in.  So on this second day of Lent, I have decided to start blogging how I feel.  So I remember that my goals are attainable and just because I am having a hard time right now doesn’t mean I should give up.  I want to lose weight so badly.  I want it to be simple.  I know that it isn’t simple and that it always goes on a lot easier than it will come off.  So I am vowing right now to call this a lifestyle change which is what it is.  Eating better and trying making an effort to get in the exercise.

I feel like I am on the right track and choosing better things for myself and my family.  I gave up any form of soda (which was bad for me anyway) and for Lent I have decided to give up all sweets (mainly candy… and if you know me, you know that I LOVE candy).  So I got to work today and put all my candy that was in my candy jar on the break room counter.  It will be hard, but 40 days is not really that long and who knows, maybe by the end of it I won’t want any anyways!   

So to start out this journey I am re-committing myself to do better.  Try harder. Don’t let the little slip-ups get to me.  Meal prepping and committing not to eating out are the top priorities.  Wish me luck!