Mirror, Mirror

This week has been a real downer for me.  Not that anything is wrong, but it has just been one of those weeks.  I am so happy that tomorrow is Friday and I only have to work a half day! 

Many people look in the mirror and do not like what they see.  This is me.  Right now my biggest enemy is starring me down in the mirror... all I see is fat, fat, fat.  I feel it every time I walk into the closest, every time I open the pantry or fridge, and every time I go to the bathroom and have to see myself.  I know that I am overweight and that I really need to do something about it.  Every diet has failed me or should I say that I have failed every diet.  I often have very good intentions of working out and then I get home and I have to take care of my number one (Elizabeth in case you didn't know) and my own nutrition and exercise fall to the wayside.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  Why couldn't I have just been born with the skinny bones!?!  I see so many skinny people at work, walking down the street, well you know, just about everywhere I go.  In my mind one day I will be like that but then that hamburger smells so good or that candy just can't be passed up.  I need motivation.  You would think that my motivation would be my daughter but even that doesn't seem to help.  I want to be healthy and happy for her and my husband but still, I don't know where to start.  Endorphins make you happy... and I believe that food is my endorphins because I just can't walk away.  Am I an addict to food?  I have a feeling that my bad eating habits are already rubbing off on my daughter and that literally scares me to death.  I hope and pray that she gets her daddy's genes.  So I could go on and on about how much I hate my body and wish I could just take a magic pill to make it better, but I know deep down that I have to do it.  I have to be healthier.  Let this be heard again, I have to be healthier!

So to top of the week, I am working on our tax return.  (Yes, you read correctly, our tax return from 2011.)  Just another reason I am so down in the dumps this week.  I loath the IRS.  I think we pay way too much in taxes and this sucks.  There, however, is nothing I can change about that.  So, I will file my return tomorrow and go on my merry little way...

Greg is on a business trip this week so it is just me and the munchkin today and tomorrow.  She is what keeps me going day in and day out.  I really think I took for granted how much Greg helps me around the house.  He may not be there with us physically but he does help me by washing dishes, washing clothes, and just the general clean up.  With a toddler running around, it is hard to do this by myself in the evenings and I definitely feel the pain and he has only been gone one day! 

So I will leave you with a smile...

Happy 1st Birthday!

I have not written on the blog in so long... actually it has be exactly one month.  One whole month of our little Lizzie went by.  It makes me want to cry because I feel like I just don't remember this last year like I should.  But, like they say, time flies!

Some of the things about Elizabeth at one year:

• has officially mastered drinking from a straw... now she can drink from anything... love it!
• such a silly monkey that climbs on everything in sight... my mom gave her a step stool and she will put it against the couch, climb up, and then slide off on her belly, then repeat... over and over and over.
• still working on the feeding situation.  It is frustrating sometimes but she is getting better.  I still give her a mix of table food and baby food.  She eats everything we give her.
• Still drinking formula, but mainly in the morning.  She does not want her night time cup at all anymore.  The transition to milk has been tough with her not taking to it (she is on Soy formula) so for now we will give her the toddler formula.
• loves to dance.  Everyone should have the opportunity to see this angel dance because it will make you laugh so hard.  They must be doing a lot of dancing and singing at school.
• very stubborn (I have no idea where she gets that from :) haha).  She knows what she wants and will let you know what she wants also.

There is so much that I can't remember right now but she is the love of my life for sure.  I can't imagine life without her.  I hope and pray she grows into a smart, independent woman like her mom! :)

So, since I don't have my camera but I do have my phone, I will share with you Elizabeth through photos this past month.  (Plus, photos are more fun to look at!)  We have been super busy and now with her birthday party tomorrow, we are completely stressed!

If you don't remember, on my last post I was talking about the first football game... here is Elizabeth ready for some football with her first pony tail!

Enjoying her morning milk at Granny's house while watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse (her favorite)

 Granny bought her a big girl bed for her house... Elizabeth was trying it out. 

We only let her take naps in it right now.

 Daddy was teaching her how to drive the car.

Daddy and his baby girl... so sweet.

Enjoying her some snack at Granny's... she is so smart.

 Playing with the cousins'

Hello FALL!

I swear she is a monkey... she climbs on EVERYTHING!

An early birthday present from school... her "friend" bite her... really do your "friends" bite you?  I hate when they call and say that.  The same girl... week after week.  Basically they tell me that they are too young to do anything about it at school.  Really?!? So, you are just going to let my kid keep getting bite?  Can you tell I was upset about this?

Today is her birthday and she could care less.  It is so sad and happy at the same time.  I can't believe how fast time goes by.  She does not like to take pictures these days so this is the best I could do at school.