A little venting!

Why are things so complicated all the time?  Or is it just me making things complicated?  Who knows!?!  I stress about money (or lack of), my broke down car, my job and on top of it, I am getting anxious for our little one to be here added to the stress of maybe (fingers crossed) selling our old house.  I know I still have two long months to go, but I just feel so ill-prepared for the baby.  I am usually pretty prepared for everything.  I literally had my wedding planned almost six months before the date, but for the baby, I feel like there is nothing I can do.  I know we have the baby's room ready for her, but if she were to come tomorrow, I would have nothing but some clothes and diapers.  I feel as if I wouldn't even know what to do with her if she were to come.  Will my motherly insincts kick in when she comes?  I know many people (including my husband) think I am stressing for no reason because she is not due for two more months, but i just can't shake this feeling.  Sometimes I feel like I can't even talk about the way I am feeling because people think I am being silly.  This past weekend I went to see a good friend of mine who has a six month old and as I was holding the sweet little thing, I realized I don't know the first thing about babies.  I am sure hoping the child birth class and prepared childbirth class helps ease some worry!  I am starting to think that maybe I should have read more books but then I think about what people did 100 years ago when they didn't have anything but insinct to go off of.  If they can do it, surely I can too.  I am trying to hold off on buying anything until after the showers because I know we will get lots of cool stuff to help after she comes... I am just trying not to worry about her coming earlier than those showers! :) One thing I did get to complete is the baptism arrangement.  She will be baptized on Nov. 13th at St. Philip's, so now I can go ahead and get invites made and ready for after she is born.  I guess I am just going to have to sit back and take a breather and try not to worry but I know that won't happen!

As I mentioned above, we may actually have a buyer for the old house.  I am trying not to get my hopes up like before when we were supposed to be closing on the house and the buyer backed out after we were supposed to close!  I pray that something will work in our favor for once! It sure would be a great feeling to get that off our shoulders.  Paying two mortgages and all the bills that go along with two homes is really stressful!  We should have an answer by Monday hopefully but again, in our crazy lives, you never know!  Maybe if we sell the house, I can talk Greg into letting me get a new car since mine is crap and I really don't want to keep driving the big truck in downtown Houston!  Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we continue to make it through our crazy, busy lives.